I’ve owned my fair share of “three-striped” latex over the years which has just been a simulacrum of the brand. As someone who’s an Adidas clothing enjoyer in everyday life I was super excited to find Adidas were selling actual, genuine, latex clothing in the USA last year. Obviously it all sold out instantly.
Fast forward to this year and Adidas started selling the same lines in Colombia of all places. I’d had an eBay search setup which picked up on this and a few messages with a seller later and I was able to grab a track top and bottoms. Yep, I paid for the privilege of using an intermediary and shipping from the other side of the world but at least I was able to add them to the collection.
The fit was a bit of a guess but luckily turned out to be pretty good. The items had “Made In China” as the origin but the construction is actually really good. They even came with a little wear guide which was a nice touch for first timers.
We had a great little photoshoot day at a local running track on the last day of summer. The sunshine really made the white lines pop in the gloss of the latex, and the orange, black, and blue contrasted perfectly.
If you are an Adidas and latex lover and you get the chance to pick some up in the future I totally recommend it.
The UK’s draconian Online Safety Act effectively places such onerous requirements on any site “with a link to the UK” or “where the UK is a target market”. I have no idea what these mean in practice or how a personal blog is supposed to comply with them. The “guidance” is thousands of pages of impenetrable legalese.
My blog has been around for 20 years. It contains a wealth of memories and information from early kink exploration, 3D printing, kink DIY, and laterally my transition. I don’t want it to just vanish from the internet.
Geoblock the UK from accessing any images and video.
Disable comments for all.
The way I’ve chosen to do this means the site will look broken if you’re in the UK but you’ll still be able to read information. I think it’s important that people still have access to information when they’re trying to discover more about themselves even as sites like reddit go behind age verification.
The risks of implementing AV are too great, the companies doing it cannot be trusted, and the mechanisms are easily circumvented. I will never introduce it and would rather kill the blog but I hope my changes are the right balance for now.
I can only hope the OSA is paired back in scope in time, but if you are “outside” the UK then you should be able to see everything as normal.
These 3D printed Overwatch Mercy Imp horns are pretty popular. I had a vague idea of using them for a halloween costume and ended up starting early / finishing very late depending on your point of view.
I won’t be going into the 3D print side of the build, just the electronics side that gives a great animated fire effect.
The LED strips are fragile but thin enough to fit into the recess on the horns, almost to the tip. You will need to cut them as they are too long. Mine were 53 LEDs long in the end.
Connect the 5V and Ground wires from the LED strips to the Trinket. Connect the data in wire to pin 0 on the Trinket. Solder on the SMT battery connector.
The recess on the side of the horns was big enough for a 150mAh battery pack which won’t last that long but will do.
Programming the 5V Trinket can be a pain. It uses Arduino code not CircuitPython like the 3V Trinket so you will have to use the Arduino IDE.
Make sure you have installed the Adafruit boards support, and download the NeoPixel library (see Adafruit for details). Configure Arduino IDE to use Trinket 8MHz or Trinket 16MHz and select USBTinyISP as the Tools > Programmer.
Actually programming it in my case needed a very old laptop with USB 2.0 ports on it, nothing modern worked. You might get away with a USB 2.0 hub but I didn’t have one to try.
Connect the Trinket over USB, wait a second, press the button on the Trinket, then choose upload in Arduino IDE. Once updated, connect the battery to the Trinket and hopefully you will get a lovely flame effect on your LED strips!
I recently bought an SGE 400 gas mask. It appealed because it has a nice wide visor so you can see the victim’s eyes plus it had three (yes, 3!) NATO 40mm ports which can be blanked off to give you various options. It also has a really easily adjustable head harness to make getting it on the uncompliant much simpler.
I’d hoped that I could have something that was very quick and easy to switch between rebreather mode (air comes in and out the same port) and normal mode (air comes in one of the 40mm ports and out the exhale valve). It’s not the work of a few seconds but the following gives you these options without any destructive changes.
What you will end up with is the external exhale port blocked off, the external front inhale valve removed, and the internal front exhale valve reversed. Removing the valves can be fiddly but a pair of right angled tweezers helps here.
3D printed part push fits into place over the exhaust. Inhale valve removed.Internal exhaust valve now reversed direction.
You’ll need to 3D print this STL file and glue a 0.8mm thick piece of scrap latex onto the back of (or two 0.4mm which is the standard catsuit gauge). You can just use superglue, we’re not being precious.
I’m not a boy. I’m not even a girl. I’m like a failed version of both.
– Mae Martin, Feel Good, 2020
This is a very personal post and I’m going to lean heavily on Mae Martin for helping me through it.
I have identified as non binary for about four years now. I am out to everyone in my life. But there is still a disconnect between the thing I think I am and the thing I see in the mirror. I was recently told that I’ve always seemed to have been uncomfortable in my own skin and that my kink identity has perhaps been a mask for that? Chasing my puppy identity, the drone, then the rubber doll but seemingly never settling.
And this is not some damascene moment, not some flash of psychologist intervention, not a hypnotic regression to realise I always wore dresses as a child or something. No. This has been a slow burn, a constant gnawing feeling that stops you sleeping. It’s always been there but you don’t notice it until it suddenly bursts forth.
I think of myself being relatively enlightened but I never really got what non binary was. I went through a lot of my life being unhappy with my current body yet unhappy with any other alternative because I thought it was a binary choice – if not boy then it must be girl. And then I saw this.
– Mae Martin, Feel Good, 2021
YES! I thought, that is me, I am just me, I transcend and reject that binary choice.
But here is the problem. I now know me but other people do not see me that way. Yes, those closest to me do, but in a shop or restaurant, or on the phone, I’m still a Sir.
Which brings me to the here and now. I want to boost my femme aspects – if 1 was a boy and 10 a girl I guess I’m aiming for a 5 or 6. Simply taking estrogen might help me but I also don’t want any breast growth. This might(?) change in the future but I can only do what feels right in the present.
Before I continue I want to say this is the experience of one person only. What is right and works for me may not work for you but it might help you to know you’re not on your own.
Sadly there is very little research on transgender medicine and even less on nonbinary folk. So we do our own.
It has taken me four months to find a doctor willing to help (I would not recommend GenderGP by the way) but I have finally started on Raloxifene. This is a selective estrogen reuptake modifier (SERM) which is designed to activate estrogen receptors everywhere but in breast tissue. I have also added in Dutasteride which blocks the conversion of testosterone to DHT.
Even though I don’t quite know where I’m going I’m excited for the journey. I’ll be keeping this post updated with my progress if you want to come on the ride.
Update September 2024: I started micro-dosing Estradiol gel (0.375mcg) around two months ago which gives me a level of around 120pmol/L which is quite low. So far I’ve seen some subtle changes to skin softness, I’m more emotional, and orgasms are quite different! No boob growth. I’ll be re-evaluating where I am in a couple more months.
October 2024: I increased Estradiol to 0.75mcg (one pump) a day and my blood level is now approximately 150pmol/L. I’ve since increased Estradiol to 1.5mg (two pumps) a day and we’ll see where we are next month.
December 2024: My Estradiol levels are at ~350pMol, T is stubbornly stuck at ~19nmol. I have some minor breast development. I think this is mainly fat redistribution as there are no obvious buds (I think). My endocrinologist thinks that the Raloxifene may be keeping the T higher (the same drug class is used in male fertility treatments) and has recommended I start GNRHa which will effectively nuke my endogenous hormones. I’m slightly worried about this as full feminisation is not what I want but we’ll see how this pans out over the next six months.
July 2025: I did not get on with Decapeptyl and switched to Cyproterone. My T is still <1nmol. I certainly have breast buds and a feminine chest is developing but this is not a huge problem as it turns out. I am still taking Raloxifene. Clearly Raloxifene is not going to totally stop breast development especially if the T brake is removed. If this is something you want to try then go for it, you will have some warning of breast tenderness before development becomes obvious.
If you’re in the UK and want to approach non-binary aware gender specialists then I can first hand recommend the following:
Rei is my spirit animal and they’re a pretty popular character to cosplay. It took a while to put together the whole set, including hours of laborious 3D printing sanding and painting the spear of Longinus.
If you love what you see and can afford to chuck some pennies at me, always appreciated but never expected 💖
Social media isn’t like an airport, it doesn’t need a departure announcement.
But I think some explanation is needed in this case as Twitter (I’ll be in my cold cold grave before I recognise its new name) has been my home and community since 2009. It has been fundamental to understanding my own sexuality and gender and with connecting with so so many wonderful people.
And I hate that one individual has decided to rob me of all of this.
Interaction (and I don’t mean just dopamine hits) has been down, and my timeline has been filled with actual, literal fascists. I am lucky in one sense in that my income doesn’t depend on it but for anyone that does my heart breaks to see what it has become.
So what next:
Twitter has all but been deleted. The handle is still there but I am no longer checking it.
Mastodon has been flat but I’ll continue to use it.
Bluesky currently has the most promising community and has seen a big influx recently (November 2024).
Instagram allows me to follow some vendors but the moderation policies are draconian.
Fetlife is ok but the level of creepy comments is unpleasant.
OF/Fansly serve a purpose especially for live streams and video hosting and I’ll continue to use them to post early exclusives before that content becomes available for free here.
The blog will stay and might actually get a bit more attention.
Tailoring content for each platform takes effort and I don’t want to simply automatically cross post either. I don’t know how best to proceed and won’t always get it right but I’ll try my best to continue to inform and help the community that has helped me so much over the last 20 years. x
